so i started this short journey alone…


it was hard…to leave everything behind.


couldn’t even enjoy the show.


but i found my solace. my comfort in times of disappointment.


it rained on the day when i need to go back to my misery reality.

and i ended this short journey.

after learning how to fake a smile,

telling myself it will be alright. 🙂



i did no wrong.

maybe you take it wrongly.

i think i handle this matter the wrong way.

maybe i am just plain selfish.


drying my shoes after the rain…and let the tears dry on its own.

i live my life, my way.

but now i understood.

something. nothing.

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” ~H. Jackson Brown Jr., P.S. I Love You

when you thought there is something, but actually there is nothing.

i told myself is time to grab the chance if it ever comes again,

i tried. i went. i thought i did it. at least i did.


is it a dream or the reality?

so for now, i know i should stop hoping for more.

that familiar place, the same person,

it’s so much more colder this time.

no, it is still the same.

nothing ever changes. there is nothing in the first place.